Morning ThoughtsPosted: January 29, 2013
As I was doing a few Yoga asanas (poses) this morning, I thought about a conversation I had with my stepmother this weekend. She has been one of my Yoga guides and I am so grateful that I am able to share my journey of teaching with her.
Since I completed my Yoga teaching final in November, I haven’t actually taught anyone even though I am certified to do so. Friends and co-workers have asked me to teach them, but my response has been the same: “I need to get over myself” and/or “I will be ready to teach when I’ve completed the 200 hour Registered Yoga Teacher (RYT) training.” While talking this over with stepmama, I admitted to her and myself that those responses are based in fear. While I do want to pursue the RYT certification, I also know I’m hiding behind it to avoid starting to teach. Before I could say what it was that I am actually in fear of, stepmama asked me if I was afraid of hurting someone while teaching. I answered with an emphatic “yes!” And it’s not just that I might hurt people by teaching something incorrectly, but I also fear that I will not be able to properly help those who have particular ailments. I know that you can modify asanas to match where a person is in their body, but what if I don’t know the right modifications? Stepmama just smiled in her gentle and knowing way and shared with me a thought that is key to moving forward on this path.
She told me to acknowledge and, more importantly, to embrace that I have a gift. I have been placed on this path as a means to channel my desire to help others and Yoga is my gift for doing so. Embracing this…simply being okay with it…will help to allay my fears and be my guide for teaching. Her response was such a profound one. Anyone who truly knows me, knows that I have been on a constant quest for my special gift or talent. And in that moment, stepmama helped to make things more clear for me. In my last blog (“Inspiration”), I shared how I am beginning to connect the dots of my path through the people I have known and experiences I’ve had along the way. This most recent conversation makes it clear that the connection is coming full circle. Now I just have to put it all together and take that first step of teaching on my own.
It is a beautiful thing when you recognize what your special gift is to share with the world. I think I’ll start with my co-workers first. The Yoga teaching journey continues…
“Our Greatest Fear”
“Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate, but that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, handsome, talented and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God within us.
It is not just in some; it is in everyone.
And, as we let our own light shine, we consciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our fear,
our presence automatically liberates others.”