Magenta Moments

I am at an interesting place on my life’s journey. I know that I am on a path towards what I call my “free” and I’ve been feeling more enlightened than ever before. But admittedly, there are days when I feel like I am stuck in a rut. Where movement and growth seems to have plateaued. I call these times my magenta moments.  A term that I learned from one of my most favorite shows, “The Golden Girls.” There was an episode where Blanche said she was feeling a way. And it wasn’t green with envy, red with anger or blue with sadness, so she called it magenta. That always stuck with me and seems to be the perfect word and color to describe those moments where you’re not sure of what to do or where to turn.  This can be ever-so frustrating, and I try hard to shift my thoughts, repeat positive affirmations and engage with other like-minded people who are looking for more and better, so I don’t remain in that rut. As I am growing in Yoga, both in practicing and teaching, I know these are the moments when I need to hit the mat more than anything. For breathing, reflection, movement and turning within. And when I am unable to practice Yoga, there is music. My favorite artist singing a favorite song that seems to speak to exactly where I am in life at the moment.

Jill Scott is one of my most favorite magenta moments singers. With this rut I’ve been feeling lately, I’ve found myself often singing her song, “Hear My Call.” There is something so pure and honest about the rawness of her words. As I was driving into work this morning, I decided to share the lyrics and video. The one line that resonates with me the most simply asks: “Where is the turn…so I can get back to the old me?” Although I feel I am in a rut, I am determined to keep moving forward until I find my turn.

Thank you for letting me share my journey with you. Namaste.

“Hear My Call”

Here I am again asking questions,

Waiting to be moved.

I am so unsure of my perception,

What I thought I knew, I don’t seem to.

Where is the turn so I can get back to what I believe in?

Back to the old me and

God, please hear my call. I am afraid for me.

Love has burned me raw, I need your healing.

I am such a fool.

How did I get here?

Played by all the rules

Then they changed.

I am but a child to your vision,

Standing in the cold and the rain.

Lost here in the dark, I can’t see

My foot to take a step, what is happening?

Oh, this hurts  so bad. I can hardly breathe.

I  just want to leave so

God, please hear my call. I am afraid for me.

Love has burned me raw, I need your healing.

Please.

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3 Comments on “Magenta Moments”

  1. OmCities says:

    Thought provoking post – thank you. Though this was interesting and goes along with what you’re expressing in our piece – http://www.empower-yourself-with-color-psychology.com/color-magenta.html

    “The color magenta is one of universal harmony and emotional balance. It is spiritual yet practical, encouraging common sense and a balanced outlook on life.

    The color magenta helps to create harmony and balance in every aspect of life; physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually.

    A combination of red and violet, magenta contains the passion, power and energy of red, restrained by the introspection and quiet energy of violet.”

    • biracialmama says:

      First, thank you for reading my blog! Second, how timely! “Magenta” is exactly how I woke up feeling today and I greatly appreciate the description of what the color means. I am certainly on a quest for common sense and a more balanced outlook on life. 🙂

      Readers can go to: http://www.omcities.com for more great information.

      Namaste and om shanti!

  2. Cladis Voss says:

    Your thoughts made me think of these words from “Desiderata” that also fit the moment when you wonder where is my turn…….. “‘..Do not distress yourself with imaginings…Be gentle with yourself….And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.” So, maybe we just have to find that peace that comes from within and just keep moving forward…


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